from a paris airport

i have been at this airport for over seven hours now....my phone died and i havent been able to get on two flights so far.

i will post more later because children are screaming and this keyboard is european, meaning its completely backwards and im getting pissed just using it

no offense to my european friends...im just sayin
;)

oh before i go...let me tell you about some big ol european guy that was at the same gate as me waiting for his flight...homeboy takes out his ca,era that has the flip screen on the back and sits there WATCHING me through it like i wouldnt notice...

i just want to go to bed
:(

3.1.07

So my countdown is done. Today is March first 2009...
two years ago today my high school was hit by an F5 tornado completely destroying it and killing eight students. It happened my junior year at 1:15 pm during second block...we had been packing up and getting ready to go to a WGI indoor drumline competition down in florida when our principal came on telling us to get in the hallways...we sat there for hours just waiting for this weather to pass, playing on our ipods and complaining about rumbling stomachs...and then they told us we were being let out early at 1:00...a few minutes later the lights flickered on and off...nobody really thought anything about it until they flickered a second time and this time didn't come back on...our ears were popping and kids were screaming someone's arms were around me and i remember looking up and the huge metal doors leading outside as they banged against the metal frame and looking up at the window above them wondering when this was going to be over...you know when people say your entire life flashes before your eyes before you die? well it's true...because time stands completely still, everything stops as life slips away and out of grasp. And just as fast as it began, it was over. My drum instructor came tearing through our little hallway and threw open the double doors leading outside. Complete destruction, utter chaos, everything was gone...except for the little hallway the protected Enterprise High School's 2006-2007 drumline. We had to go through our destroyed band room and see our instruments covered in pink insulation and ceiling, a lead pipe three times my size stuck through the gaping ceiling. Outside was like a warzone. Our band truck was flipped over car were smashed and completely wrecked...the funny thing was my teachers motorcycle was stull on it's kickstand, with not a scratch...and a little sapling tree was still standing tall surrounded by huge pines beaten down to mere splinters. Methane gas filled my nose, the science wing was flattened and the gases were leaking out. The ceiling collapsed on one of the hallways...killing eight of our students...taking them away forever. I saw my best friend climb through what was once a wall. I still wasn't crying, i couldn't cry...a feeling of just utter shock and disbelief washed through me. I almost threw up when i saw the twisted metal and everything just shattered, like a really pissed off giant just stomped through and had a complete temper tantrum. Sirens and helicopters and police and firemen and blood and screaming and dirt, glass, bricks, tears...everything all at once. Hugs and I love yous...we all had to walk around the school and run to the church across the street because another one was coming. Like little lost lambs with nothing left to hold onto except for the robes of a shephard. I fell on my face at the altar and couldn't help but let out every tear i ever had couped up in me. My parents were frantically looking for me and finally we met up in the church's sanctuary and went home...but i was still there, looking at the faces, looking at the rubble, my high school, my home, my school spirit, my break ups and bathroom laughs, my sweaty days of drum camp, my companionship, my pep-rallies, my twelve hour days of unending practices...my heart stood there mourning for everything lost that day. And it's still there...watching ghosts of people standing there doing the exact same thing. I remember sitting in bed at night with no power just staring outside, with no lights working in town the moon shone so bright. That thursday we were supposed to go to a competition, a few of us still went, where we didn't play but showed more sport and heart than any of the lines performing...
I remember having a generator hooked up to our house so we could watch the news with an old tv that was hooked up to rabbit ears, i remember seeing those eight faces staring back at me from the tv...
I miss you
Katie Strunk, Peter Dunn, Jamie Vidensek, Mikey Tompkins, AJ Jackson, Ryan Moehler, Michael Bowen, and Michelle Wilson
Katie's beautiful smile
Peter's gangster ways ;)
Jamie's kind heart
Mikey's helpful disposition
Aj's amazing sense of humor
ryan's quiet but loving heart
Michael's amazing talent
and michelle's youthful heart


I live in the deep south...so tornadoes aren't that rare...but snow is...and today I woke up to little flurries outside my window.

It's fun to think that up there eight amazing teenagers are making it snow in little old enterprise alabama and giving us a chance to dance around outside and catch snowflakes on our tongues instead of mourning and moping around.

Oooooo I remember now!!!

I remember what i was going to post about now!
i love it when that happens
:)

ok so...I frequent the barnes and noble in the town i work in quite often, therefore the people working in the starbucks cafe know my face and my drink...
tall passion tea over ice with classic sweetener and lemonade flavoring...

well the other night i decided to swing by and if i haven't said this already let me let you know, i'm an avid fortune cookie fortune collector...i have hundreds.

I walk up to the counter and i look at the ground a lot so i noticed that someone had dropped a fortune!!! I picked it up and handed it to the man behind the counter...
Let me describe this guy to you...
He's a bigger guy...rough looking...bushy facial hair...could be a lumberjack but instead chose barista...baristo?

ANWAYS!
I didn't read the fortune first...i just handed it to him...
well the fortune says...
A new relationship will be blossoming soon...keep your eyes open...or something to that extent
we had that awkward...I'm not trying to hit on you i promise moment and he said...That's the worst come on i've ever seen...
haha...
i'm blushing so bad i can see it on my nose at this point...i kinda laugh it off and proceed to order.
but now it's awkward right? now he's gonna be like...omg it's destiny.
when it's not...
it's a sticky dirty fortune cookie some kid dropped and is probably freaking out now because he planned his whole valentines on finding that one new relationship a cookie's insides promised

I told brian and he cracked up...
he's home now! :) yay


blugh
i'll have new pictures of my hair up on here tomorrow
:D

Cause i'm a cheap chick

Throughout the day i'll encounter things that immediately make me think...oh that will be great in my blog...but then i forget it...

i've been forgetting a lot lately...well...i forget everything lately...

but there was one thing that really...stuck

I was in the drive through at Chik-fil-a and i always look at the people around me in the cars and whatnot...well the woman behind me...get this...was popping a zit.

I wanted to turn around and like...yell at her to stop...but it was too late...my appetite was gone and i had to tell the lady at the window to hold the mayo...

I have been reading Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk and i must say...it is my LEAST favorite book by him...
usually i can't put his books down...but this one...i actually shut and was like...this is dumb and i don't even care to know if they get out of the stupid theatre or not because they are all just cutting off their toes and fingers and killing everyone and starving and it's just a dumb book.

i'm in a random mood right now...
i get my hair did tomorrow after work...

ugh...
now i'm in a bad mood because my brain can't remember anything anymore...early alzheimers if you ask me...
but then again don't cause i probably won't remember to answer...

wait...
what?

When i PMS it's like a blind rage of red over my eyes

Oh hey guess where i am!!!
I bet you'll never even get close to where i am...
work.
surprise surprise!!
I swear if they had a shower here i could live here.
Anyways....class today was as good as it's gonna get....today was my bo-bo music app. class. We are on the romantic period and i swear i know more than my professor. we watched a bit of the Nutcracker ballet...Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky is one of my favorite composers...mainly because he is so incredibly messed up in the head.
I have a 500-word essay due tomorrow comparing two of our assigned poems....and i honestly am just not in the mood to write about anything right now because everything coming out sounds stupid and i'm PMSing like a mo fo and i can't concentrate cause my throat is scratchy and i'm at work and bored and sick of christmas already....
I love feedback...
of any kind...
so let me hear it! :)
---peace&love---

Elephant tranquilizers...

I would kill for about six of them.
I have a killer headache...it's probably due to the fact that i've been crying for the past hour or so...or because i've been watching people get their heads pounded on UFC unleashed...or because i have bad genes and my dad gets bad headaches all the time....dear God there's a lot of blood coming out of that dudes face...:(

I shall conquer you, Womanhood

Ugh nothing like a cocktail of pain killers and surfing through the millions of blogs on this website...i love the random pictures of people...
you get to know them through their smiles and the silent laughs behind them.
Work is scarey at night...
remind me to get a new thing of mace.